Her joys must be as high as her sorrows are deep

This is a world of dreams and reverie, where I felt the stars explode around me. A grass blade flashed with a gleam as it slashed open a moonbeam, and I stared back breathlessly. As mountains of fruit tumbled out, I barely had the chance to shout; a lingonberry avalanche crashed over me.

I want a boy; A bad boy. But a bad boy with a soft side.

A boy who will make me laugh.
A boy who will let me play with his hair.
A boy who will stop and wait for me in the hall, take my hand and walk me two classes away.
A boy who will tell me he loves me when I get to school.
A boy who will never be ashamed of me.
A boy who would go to something even though he doesnt want to; just to see me.
A boy who will run his fingers through my hair.
A boy who would take the long way to class and be late just to see me for 30 seconds.
A boy who would stay after school with me just to walk around and talk.
A boy that can free style for me.
A boy that would look me in the eyes and sing me something random but sweet.
A boy who acts normal around anyone.
A boy who would tell a girl that he has a girlfriend.
A boy who would make out in the rain with me.
A boy who would lie under the stars and tell me stories as I lay my head on his chest.
A boy who would wait for me outside the bathroom.
A boy who would come up behind me, wrap his arms around me, and put his head on my shoulder so I can lean back and put mine on his.
A boy who lets me pay sometimes.
A boy who would rest his forehead against mine so he'd be staring into my eyes, and after a while of silence, say "I love you" and give me a soft kiss.
A boy who would do something special for me if I were having a bad day.
A boy who would write on "Happy Birthday" on a chalkboard in one of my classes on my birthday.
A boy who would take someone's cell phone, go into the bathroom and call me if I wasn't in school to find out where I was.
A boy who would risk getting told off by teachers by passing me notes in class.
A boy who would tell me things through my friends.
A boy who yells my name from across the hall while grinning and waving.
A boy who would meet me at my locker every morning and at dismissal.
A boy who would let me sit with my friends at lunch; and when we'd look at each other from across the cafeteria, we'd smile.
A boy who would come and sit with me and my friends.
A boy who would beat another guy's ass if they were messing with me.
A boy who would let me take pictures of him and put them in my binder.
A boy who would buy me random things from gumball machines.
A boy who would call me at 3am and ask me what I was doing; and tell me he was thinking about me.
A boy who would go to the mall with me and we'd peoplewatch and make fun of them.
A boy who would go places with me and my friends even though he'd be the only guy present.
A boy who would laugh at me when I get a detention; only because he's sitting there next to me for the same reason.
A boy who would carry my books for me.
A boy who would help me with my homework; even thought he doesnt know it either.
A boy who would pick out a song that made him think of me.
A boy who likes some of my music and I would like some of his; even though we both in the first place hated it, but now love it cause they like it.
A boy who can instinctively tell when something is wrong with me.
A boy who would help me if I was having problems at home.
A boy who would burn me a CD of songs that sounds me; and I'd do the same.
A boy who would take the blame for me being late.
A boy who would pin me against a wall and kiss me.
A boy who would take me to the theaters for a stupid kid movie; just so we can sit in the back and link hands and lean against each other.
A boy who would piggyback me of his own accord when I get tired of walking.
A boy who makes his friends jealous of me because he talks about me so much.
A boy who would say I am "beautiful", as opposed to "hot", "sexy", "pretty" or "gorgeous".
A boy who lets me take pictures of him at embarrassing times.
A boy who acts silly with me, and is not ashamed of it.
A boy who lets me tease and bully him, and will do the same back.
A boy who would pretty much do anything for me.

I think it should be "I want a girl" instead.
I'm such an idealist, and I feel stupid because I can't help it.
Is there even a guy out there who is halfway like this?