Her joys must be as high as her sorrows are deep

This is a world of dreams and reverie, where I felt the stars explode around me. A grass blade flashed with a gleam as it slashed open a moonbeam, and I stared back breathlessly. As mountains of fruit tumbled out, I barely had the chance to shout; a lingonberry avalanche crashed over me.

Still Doll.mp3 - Kanon Wakeshima

Anata garasu no me de donna yume wo mirareru no?

Anata ga jitsu no kuchi de dare ni ai wo nageiteiru no?

Same kitte

mederu outau mo

utaenai

a still doll.

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AIYOHYOH.
FEELS SO RANDOM.
LALALALALALALALALALALAAAAAAA
NO NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
HD2IRASNAQWIO3Q4902FWNEC89424EJKWEBC
ADEL AND JACKY AND MIN DARLS, I'M FINE UH.
DIDN'T FALL SICK IN THE END.
HENG AH.
"UNGLAM FOR THE GUYS" HURHURHUR.
SARINA-CHAN, GANBARU YO.
URUHA IS LOVELOVELOVE.
AND MY SISTER THOUGHT REITA (?) IS HOT.
BECAUSE I LET HER SEE THE CHIZURU MV.
NONONONONO
URUHA IS LOVE.
DID YOU KNOW?
JACKY KNOWS A PRINCE.
HE IS QING GE WANG ZI.
BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA
PRINCEPRINCE = HOTHOT
I WANT TO KNOW A PRINCE.
I WANT TO WATCH DARK KNIGHT.
DARK DARK KNIGHT IN A DARK DARK CINEMA DURING A DARK DARK NIGHT UH.
WATCH BATMAN FLY.
FLYFLYFLY.
HOLYHOLYSHIATS YO.
JACKLYN WAS AMAZING FOR TRANCESDENCE 2008.
HER VOICE IS LOVELOVELOVELOVE UH.
"THIS IS MY NOW", SHE SANG.
YOU WITH THE GORGEOUSGORGEOUS VOICE LAA.
DAN&RIN DAN&RIN
SONG IS LOVE TWO.
LOVE TWO, LOVE TOO.
GEDDIT? GEDDIT?
NEVERMIND THEN.
IMMA GO WATCH THE REST OF THE TRANCESDENCE VIDS AND SCARE EVERYONE IN THE LIBRARY BY SMILING BIGBIG AND LAUGHING TO MYSELF LOUDLOUD.

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No, seriously. I'm not feeling very well.
:S

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Damn.
And stop sounding so annoyingly chirpy.

Now I've got to find a new skin to download and use. So time consuming, especially when I have to do all my friends' links. I simply have too many, but its not like I'll be deleting them, so I'm stuck cutting and pasting and scrolling.
Plus, I only have about twenty minutes left for today's session, so there's definitely no room for me to do anything. Please, give me that Sky package! >_<*

I'm having a headache. Double damn.
And I still have to face a thirty minute walk from Fareham town centre back home.
Triple damn.
Kill me luh.

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I' m bored luh.
Life suddenly feels very mundane. Boring and meaningless and covered with dust. I don't know why i'm feeling this way all of a sudden, but I was fine one moment, and feeling shitty the next. Most of my friends know I have these habitual bouts of neurotism and depression, its so annoying. I think I do scare people sometimes. Do I scare you?

Wait, I may have got it.
I was reading up on all my friends' blogs and feeling nostalgic and lonely. The stuff they talk about that went on in school makes me wish I was there with them so badly. Whenever they mention mutual friends (which is a lot), I get little flashbacks of random moments with that pal. Only just now I was at Dann's site, watching a dance perf video he'd posted, and I suddenly got reminded of all the similar perfs we use to have in Regent, which made me think of DC7 and their awesome routines, which led to thoughts of Farah, which then got me onto MI, and I ended up reminiscing about "the good ol' days" again.
I swear I depress myself sometimes. And I'm absolutely convinced I abuse my blog too much; majority of the time I post just to vent. (I'm sorry, do be assured that I still love you, Oh Faithful One who-has-stayed-by-my-side-through-it-all-(as-if-you-have-a-choice).)
See what I mean?

I suppose I should stop beating myself up over all the crap things happening to me. It's not like its my fault I'm a Crap Things magnet. Or maybe they're not Crap Things after all, its just that I make them out to be that way. "It's all a matter of perception" kind of bull.
-
Ohmyfeckinggod, I know what's happening.
I've been reading far too many philosophy books for my own good and its finally scrambled my brains into overanalyzing everything.
I swear that's it; I've got to find a way to shorten the amount of free time I have on my hands. When does school start again?

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I'm back, y'all! :D:D:D

Currently sitting in the public library in Fareham town centre. The computers here suck, seriously. The keyboard is even worse; the keys are totally not where I expect them to be, so I keep hitting the wrong things, and have to backspace like mad.
Plus, I've already exceeded my session's time slot of an hour (I sort of cheated by logging off and back on again, in hopes that my hour will be renewed LOL), so the system might kick me out any minute. I'm waiting for it to happen, or for someone to come over and tell me off.

Anyhoo, we're in our new place now, and its been okay. Except for the fact that there was zero furniture at all in the place till yesterday, the experience has been better than I'd expected. Thank god for our inflatable airbed cum sleeping bag.
So, we spent £300 in one go the day before, on a small round table with four chairs, a wardrobe and its matching chest of drawers (for my bedroom), and two tall wardrobes (for my parent's bedroom). Have I mentioned? My sister and I have officially taken over the master bedroom, with the excuse that we have more belongings that need space then them. Harharhar.

Obviously I can't post pictures at all here, but I'll do so soon. I don't think the place will disappoint you Adel, just that its small. Seriously.
But oh well, at least I'm in the largest room, so you guys will have space to crash when you come over. Or maybe we'll be in a new place by then, with me in my own room! ^______^

My mission right now is to convince my parents to take up the Sky plan, which includes 100 cable channels, broadband, and a landline for £41 per month. That's not very steep. Plus, the guy manning the booth, Ryan, told us he'd be able to get us a TV set while we wait for our shipment to come. FOC, due to his connections with the nearby television store. So why the hell not eh?
If only my parents think in the simplistic way that my sister and I do. Tsktsktsk.

Alrighty, about half an hour more of my extended time to go. Seems like my trick works. I'll be off to do other stuff.
Like TubeMe. YouTube. Whatever.

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Mr/Mrs/Mdm/Ms

It is my regret to inform you that with effect from 15 July 2008,
I shall disappear from the internet world for an unspecified amount of time due to the previously mentioned home move, and the absence of internet connection in said establishment.
If for reason you need to contact my front, I shall be found at the aforementioned address.
I apologise for any inconvenience caused.

Signed,
Catharina Cheung Ying Kei

PS. (insert Arnold Schwarzenegger voice)
I'll be back.

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Tomorrow is Goodbye To Knowle Village Day.
We're moving house, still in Fareham, just in the Highlands area now.
For those of you who've not received my email update, here's my new address:
6 Burt Close, Fareham Park Road, Fareham
Hampshire PO15 6FD
All who read this are obligated to Garymail me. :D

Something very amusing has been happening in Facebook.
It started with the uploading of a picture by one of my cousins and...well, observe:
(click to enlarge)

For those of you who don't understand Cantonese, here's the translated version (I only did the chinese character bits, too lazy):

Jacqueline Ng wrote
"What's your point?"
.
Ricky Tang wrote
"Pay attention......you can see me in the painting.......Hahahaha!!!!!!"
.
.
Jacqueline Ng wrote
"Don't scare me, I really don't see anything..."
.
Ricky Tang wrote
"Little kiddies!Not everything can be seen just by looking at the surface!hehe......"
.
Jacqueline Ng wrote
"hahaha I admit it.. I admit that I am a kid so I can't see it! Waa
~~~~~~~~~"
.
.
.
.
Ricky Tang wrote
"hahahaha! I can't believe you all actually swallowed that, how naive, did anybody NOT look at the picture? I was just messing around with you guys! What I meant was "Even though I'm not in the photograph, you guys can still think of me"
And for those whose age is only lesser than me by a LITTLE bit, don't make yourself into a kiddy. I'm merely high in terms of ranking, your "aunts" are a long way off from me (exactly how long I won't say, I'm scared of being silenced forever) ^,^ "
.
Jacqueline Ng wrote
"Don't anyhow say, haven't you noticed how sexy and young our aunts are! hahaha... If you are a long way off from their age, then I'm also a long way from your's, exactly how long I'm not saying either wahahahaha XD"

The rest you guys can read on your own.
:)
Funny shit, really. I have no idea how an arguement over a nonexistent person in a photo can morph into a GP discussion.

I think maybe digressing is hereditary.

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I think I am horrible in photos.
Why did Claud ever say I was photogenic? Its like my face hates being in 2D, and retaliates by appearing so damn flattened that I look flabby. Plus, nonexistent fats always seem to magically grow out on my captured self's body. Its annoying.

Totally unrelated but I am constantly having to deal with a craving for Maltesers, Walker chips and Orange Julius originals.
And also, I hate having to blowdry my hair and take out my contact lenses at night. If I could go without doing it, I would, but then again I know I'll get killer migraines if I sleep with wet hair, and I'm always afraid that my contacts will slip around to the back of my eyes while asleep.
Tsk. Thanks, Mrs Maya.

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I don't seem to have much inspiration nor mood to blog these few days.

Or maybe it's just the fact that so many people are fighting for computer usage, and I feel bad to hog. ANYHOO, I need a new laptop! Besides the point, but whatever, and what was the point again?

Nevermind, pictures shall do the talking. (Sorry for the wait.)

No time, no time! I shall do the pics of England in my next post okay? Wait for it, its a promise. :D

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I am in England, y'all!

We arrived yesterday at about 2 plus, spent the night at a Travel Lodge nearby (surprisingly good I thought, then I found out from my mother that it's actually quite expensive LOL), and took the National Express to Fareham just today, where we are now, in a gorgeous apartment that we'd rented for half a month.
(I suppose we're closer to Wickham than Fareham, but the address apparently still writes as Fareham and I'm not going into technicalities.)

So far England's been good, I like where we are now, and we've not run into any kind of trouble yet, so yes I'm pretty much enjoying my time. :)
I'm still rather wigging out about my upcoming interviews, about school life later, and about our new life in general. I reckon I'm still in some sort of "holiday mode", maybe my subconscious mind is in denial and thinks we're just here for a short stay. In that case, I need to find a way to convince it that there's no going back for us, so that I can finally start accepting reality and settling down.
See, that kind of thing still freaks me out. Back in Singapore and HongKong, I'm in my zone, but over here I feel like a fish out of water. I have no idea what to expect, and how to deal when something happens. All the question marks are probably what makes this entire situation feel so surreal.

And for a while, I feel like giving up and turning back, but then I remind myself that come what may, I have to be strong.

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Then I'd be your harmony

Catharina.
I enjoy lie-ins, witty snark, scribbling cryptic notes on the back of old receipts, and dancing when I think nobody is looking.

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I'm only a girl trying to find my place in this world.

Beneath the candy coated clouds

Still Doll.mp3 - Kanon Wakeshima

Anata garasu no me de donna yume wo mirareru no?

Anata ga jitsu no kuchi de dare ni ai wo nageiteiru no?

Same kitte

mederu outau mo

utaenai

a still doll.

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No, seriously. I'm not feeling very well.
:S

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I don't seem to have much inspiration nor mood to blog these few days.

Or maybe it's just the fact that so many people are fighting for computer usage, and I feel bad to hog. ANYHOO, I need a new laptop! Besides the point, but whatever, and what was the point again?

Nevermind, pictures shall do the talking. (Sorry for the wait.)

No time, no time! I shall do the pics of England in my next post okay? Wait for it, its a promise. :D

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